I Don't Knwo what I'm Thinkin' but its Really Late

It is amazing how some small thing can wreck things forever.  It’s like rolling your car, but you can’t buy a new life.  You really don’t notice those moments until they are gone and even if you notice it a second later, it’s already gone and it’s too late to do anything about it.  It’s like seeing a loved one for the last time and not saying ‘I love you’.  Its thinking ‘heck this won’t matter; not this once’ and never waking up from a nightmare. 

People talk about forgiveness and damnation.  They talk about things like they are the most straightforward things on the planet, but no one ever accounts for life.  This isn’t some tell all story (like I’d post that on a blog) it just what do you do when there is no one to talk to and nothing to do about the thought roaming your brain (now that’s something you can post on a blog).    I have been told by many people that there are less than savory things about me and that I am destined for a less than pleasant place.  The interesting thing is that I have been told this by people who are known as my friends and some that I swear I have never seen before in my life.  Now this is not truly my point but more of an example.  My point is where do we get these ideas from?  Where do we get our thoughts of right and wrong?  

People will tell me that it is a cultural construct, or that we are taught things by our parents.  This accounts for some of the things we think and feel but not everything.  For example, my sister and I grew up in the same community and were raised by the same parents, but our ideas about the world are very different (if you read this sis I mean nothing bad by it just sayin’ we are different ;-). 

Another question is why do we have to justify ourselves and to whom?  To me (personal opinion here, thus why I say ‘to me’ you can think whatever you want) the person I have to most justify myself to is… well me.  My friends my family yeah that’s all good but I am the one that has to live with myself and my actions (now if some people in the world would just learn the living with your own actions part).  So why should I have to justify the way that I am to people who couldn’t pick me out of a line up (as long as I hadn’t dyed my hair a crazy color :-/ )?  This is something about my culture that I cannot understand.  Why should I have to dress, act, look, feel, think, and just become what random people think I should?  Why should I be shunned or damned by their thoughts, and why should I give a damn?  Like I said this isn’t a complaining post it is more of a just wondering.  Some people seem to think that these things are everything, and I want to know why. 

It’s kinda funny really.  I stated asking my mom and dad why when I was little and at almost 25 I am still doing the same thing.  Honestly I think I will keep doing that until the day I die, and maybe after we’ll just have to see about at whole afterlife thing later :-P

The Biannual, Semesterly Rant (Spring 2011)

Welcome to my Biannual, Semesterly Rant.  I engage in such a dialog about once a semester usually around the middle of the semester.  Sometimes you will read about my discontent but that is not the same as the Biannual, Semesterly Rant, which is far more exasperated than other posts.

Professors often have this notion of taking a student, melting them down to their basic elements and rebuilding them to make something better.  Usually they use metal in this metaphor.  The problem with this is… you can only melt things down so many times before you end up with NOTHING. Honestly let’s take the metaphor of metal.  You can only harden steel so many times before it becomes so hard that it breaks.  If you melt it down you can lose some of it main properties.    So the more these people attempt to mold us to be “better” we end up losing things (usually our sanity and faith in the human race).  Ok, something may be better to not have hanging around, but honestly how many times do they expect you to start from scratch?

 Each class they want to you think like them, but not like them… and then they tell the students who are only half way doing the work that they are doing a great job.  Does this make the person a natural?  A natural at everything? So if we follow this logic in order to do better, we should stop trying.  Is this sound teaching?   Hmmm…. me thinks not.  

Also then you get the whole ‘well I am just wanting you to question things’.  Yeah, I have been questioning a lot of things but they have nothing to do with the universe, or the concepts of equality in the modern world.  They do, however, manage to make 

we ask ‘why am I here’, though I really don’t think it’s in the manor that the philosophers and the theologians usually meant.  I have spent hundreds and thousands of dollars to be told that I am not as good as a slacker and that I should think like every professor, but not like the other professors.  Great and here my parents have lied to me all my life that I should try to be myself.  Haha!  The world makes some much sense now, and conformity strikes again.  

Ah, thank you world and I feel better.  As you were.

Weeks I & II Spring Semester 2011 (here we go again)

So where to start? Well lets go with the beginning. I was actually looking forward to this semester. I have some hard profs this time but I thought heck I only have 15 credits....shouldn't be too bad right? Wrong! i miss my very first class this semester and its a Intro Political Research... this means I know nothing about it. Get to my Intro to German Studies and it is great. I go to my German Phonetics class and it rocks too. I heard from my online prof before the semester even started and have a 500 word page paper due every week. I thought that wouldn't be that bad, but you see he wants it to be a "highly polished" essay :-/ and the readings for the weeks are about 60-90 in the class. I get into my Capstone for Cultural Anthropology. Haha I am the only Archeology person in the class ( a no duh moment) but the sad part is I can't really put up with all the "touchy feely " crap that some of them spout (if you are one of my friends you can rest assured that you are not one of them ;-) In fact that would not bother me if some of them even thought about what they were saying but alas they do not. So in that class I have more HW than really should be legal for an undergrad course but I think that is just how this semester is going lol.

Last Thursday I got in a wreck in I-15 due to idiots and ice. Some people went off the road others freaked when they saw some cars on the side o

f the road and thought "hey this is a good time to stop." Never mind the fact that we were on a 75mph road during rush hour and the rain and turned to ice, no now was a great time to stop. I started fishtailing and I got it back under control... then I got hit from behind. Stated sliding sideways (still on the HWY). Well I got the whole sliding thing taken care of, got off the road and waited 'til I could get over to the other side of the road so that we could wait for the tow truck.

My Poor Baby (aka: the aftermath)

Luckily Lee was ahead of me and was able to pick me up as I couldn't drive my car any more. I make it home and get to the doctor, find out that I have torn up some muscles in my back and that's about (but minor though it is, I do not recommend it. In truth I think it has turned me into a raging psycho with and even shorter fuse than normal lol. If you don't believe me just ask Lee)

So I get back to school and find that I have left my parking permit home in Lee's car. I decide to park on a "street" type thing by my apartment so that I don't have to pay the $75 for not having my permit. The police never ticket there but the night I park there, they do. On the same day that I find the ticket my kitchen skin clogs up and so I can't even finish doing my dishes. I the lose my phone, have to write a report and then help give a presentation.

LOL so that is the update for this semester so far. I would love to give some good news but I am kind of lacking... wait! The day I got home some of my friends bought me a Coldstone ice cream. Yep,that rocked. I do have some great and totally awsome friends and family ;-)

To keep with what I was saying

So since what I last posted today was to happy and so forth. I've been listening to some of my dad's favorite songs and I found this poem that my friend gave me when dad died. I really liked it so I thought I would post it in case someone else might like it too.

...Do not stand at my grave and weep;
I am not there, I do not sleep.
I am a thousand winds that blow;
I am the diamond glints in snow;
I am the sunlight on ripened grain;
I am the gentle autumn rain.
I am the swift, uplifting rush
Of quiet birds in circled flight;
I am the soft stars that shine at night.
Do not stand at my grave and cry:
I am not there. I did not die.

Where to start??

So I think that it has been even longer since I have posted anything (I seem to say that a lot). To tell the truth I have been a bit depressed. This last semester has been the hardest so far, but I made it through and passed all of my classes. Woot! I have a class that I am really not looking forward to this semester but sigh what can I say. You do what you gotta do.

This Christmas was crazy. I was supposed to spend it with Lex and Barlow but no joy. We had a snow storm that was insane. We got over 3 feet of snow and there was no way in heck we would make it. Instead I made gingerbread cookies and ended up having enough for all the kids that showed up to school to decorate one. I went to my in-laws for Christmas and that was as crazy as usual ;-)

We have ripped out our old fireplace insert and have just the old stone fireplace and it rocks, even though it is messy.

I got to spend New Years at Lex's place with her, Barlow and his parents. Lee didn't get to go because he had to work. I had a lot of fun and got to see some awsome places. I have to say that they live in a beautiful place.

Sorry this is kinda random but I'm trying to remember a lot of things at once. lol.

The thing that has taken me most by surprise is how much I missed dad for Christmas. It was one of his least favorite holidays but it feels so wrong not having him here any more. After all of these months I still can't really believe it. I try not to let the loss consume my thoughts but at times it is all I can do to keep from crying. I look at the testimony that he carved into one of his pots and miss him even more. I regret the times when I could have spent more time with him and every moment that I ever got annoyed with him. Dad and I usually got along and I loved every moment that I spent with him, but those few that were different are things that I regret so much now. I wonder if we will ever understand the hole that we leave in other's lives when we are gone. What has been surprising is the amount of people who I have never met before telling me how much they miss my dad. Sometimes I wonder if I really knew my dad, but at the same time I think you can spend most of your life with someone and still not know everything about them.

The First 3 Week 2010

Ok so its been a while since I have posted anything. I started this semester with 19 credits. One Bio class, one class in Osteology, two higher German classes, Intercultural communications and a Managing Information Systems class. My ostio class requires about 7hr in the lab per week so I dropped one of my German classes that was kicking my butt. It was German lit and we were reading Old German the equivalent of Old English only in German ;-) Having done this I think I can make it through this semester. Before I had to miss classes so that I could get all of my home work done (not a good thing) and I still didn't get it all done.

Right now I am listening to America's Greatest Hits and thinking about my dad. Half of these songs I heard on the radio while we were working in the shop together. I remember one time he was throwing a pot and The Sandman came on and I realized that it followed the exact beat of the kick wheel and the flow of the clay while dad was using it. Its kind of crazy to be so sad and so happy at the same time lol. I still have to say that not being able to talk to my dad hurts like heck. I've learned so much already this semester and he's not here to tell. I also found a crazy kind of fungus growing in my fountain at home and I would like to know what kind it is before I Clorox it but dad's not here to ask. I still can't believe my dad is gone even though it has been so long. I still say goodbye to dad every time I leave for school. Its kind of an odd thing but it just feels wrong to not say goodbye to him.

On a (Less depressing) side note I have dyed my hair three times since my last post. I went from my natural red hair to black with orange streaks to black with red streaks and now I am currently sporting a chocolate brown. I have no idea why anyone would really care but this shows how random my mental proses has been.

Also I broke out the window in my apartment. It was an accident. I got locked out... well I couldn't find my keys. I had just gone shopping and my keys were no longer with me. You see the sliding part of the window can be moved a little so I thought I could break into my own apartment but... ummm.... it was a very good design and the window flexed and crash! Glass everywhere. The sucky thing was I was still locked out of my apartment. So I went to the office of the people who run the apartment and pulled into a parking stall, got out of my car and found my keys laying right next to my door. (I can't make this stuff up). So in the end I found my keys and I have to $130 to replace my window but I currently have a patch job and glass all over my floor (this happened the 3rd of Sep) and I still forgot to bring my vacuum up. So there you have it, my first few weeks at school this semester. Ah yes, some weeks just make you wanna scream ;-)

(If this post makes absolutely no sense to anyone I blame either my totally overloaded schedule of the last few weeks or America's Greatest Hits that reminded me of dad :-D)

The Willow Trees

This is a poem that I wrote in memory of my dad who I miss and love so much. It doesn't say everything I would like to say but there are some things that the English language is not capable of. It is just crazy to me how we can use words everyday but still never truly say what we feel or mean.

The Willow Tree

Calmly sings the willow leaves among the twining trees

Sweetly sings the autumn breeze among the stormy seas.

All these things you told me if trades long forgot

All these things you taught me of how the earth was wrought.

Of tales long told ad worlds unknown

That dreams in life were sown

In this world your life unfurled 'til breath had met its end

No more wisdom can you give to me, or hope and guidance send.

Now I learn of love and loss

And how a smile my pain must cross.

For now you sleep beneath the trees your pain has met its end,

But now my pain shall take some time for life to mend.

So sleep well in the silent seas and view the bright clear skies,

And learn of life and things unknown where pain no longer cries.

The willow leaves still calmly sing among the twining trees.

The autumn breeze yet sings among the stormy seas.

The begning of summer 2010

Ok so its been a while since I have posted anything lol.

Finals went ok this time, my lowest grad was a B so I think I can live with that.

I got two weeks off to go home. The last day before I had to go back to Logan we went fishing at Max's pond. Lee and I went with Robert, mom, dad, and Andrew. Andrew had bad luck for the first little while but in the end he ended up with the biggest fish wighing in at 10lbs. I think he might have been a but happy about that ;-)

The next day I had to go back to Logan to do some classroom training for the Acreological field school this summer. After the classroom work we headed out. We went to The Stinking Springs Rock Shelter in Teton National park. There was alot of mistakes and alot of being yelled at. We have two profs working with us and they have differant ideas about what should be done how. This means that even if you do what you are told, you still get yelled at by the other guy :-/ They guys on the crew are reallly great though and the profs are good guys even if they don't always comunicate lol. Below are some pics of what we did. We excivated two units and screened everything through 1/8 inch screen. It was a lot of work and took alot of time. We also had to do some field work in the lab.

We got the chance to stay at a historic cabin at a research station in the park and that was amazing. We were right on the edge of Jackson Lake and it was beatuiful. The weather was rainy and stayed around 60 degrees ish. I leave again on Tuesday to go for my second 10 day rotation. It is going to be something new and it should prove to be intersting lol. Hopefuly things go better than the 1st ;-)

And Time Goes On :-P

All right so what can I say this time? In truth there is not much to say. All though I must say that this semester has sucked LOL. :-P I'm just not getting into my classes and I feel like I am constantly running my butt off. My brain is drained and I really jsut can't care about much save my German class. I really like that class but the others... yeah, not so much :-/Other than that life has been normal.

Oh yeah I have purpel hair now

A few weeks ago I got back from a thing on Capotol Hill (in Utah) where I presented some of my research. I work up @ 5 am so I could get on the bus @ 6 and drive to SLC... bleh. It was one whole day of biz cloths, standing on a marble floor for hours, and talking to politicians and reporters. At least lunch was good ;-)

I hate this pic :-/

Here are some pics that I took on my way back to Logan the other day. I thought they were cool.

That's about it for me right now. Oh, I am also working on some stuff for a Co. that Robert is trying to get up and running. I thought I learned never to do anything for free but.... LOL I guess not. So far all I have done are the biz cards and the logo

Ok so hopefully I will talk to you later. If not hahaha... yeah :-D You know how months like this go ;-)

Weeks Of Chirstmas 2009

Hey everybody!

So the last few days have been great. The guys had a great turn out in Saturday night. Not loads of people but a great crowd no the less. Last night was amazing though. Out of only like 40-50 people they made over 2,170 for Frankie and Chaz! Plus a 6ft table worth of gifts. I think that most of the crowd had fun. I know that some people were impressed by the music but I think most were impressed by what was accomplished. These two actually have something now and its is awsome.



At the moment I am at my parents house taking care of the animals waiting for the frozen water dishes to unfreeze. It is snowing here once again :-) some people say it sucks but the more snow we have the more water we'll have later and plus what is Christmas without snow? Exactly! I only wish that I could get me feet to warm up but eh that's winter in the Basin for ya.


I'm still trying to figure out a trick to load Sir Fatso on to this Blogg but... we'll see. If you wanna see it and you are on my Facebook, I had to split it into two parts (they won't let you post anything over 20 min and the movie is 26 min. I think that it's lame but... oh well). I hope everyone is having a good Holiday Season. I am looking forward to Christmas, I think it should be a good one this year. (Mostly I just wanna see everyone open their gifts, that's my favorite part:-)


This year I am also trying my hand and making ornaments for the Christmas Tree. I think it had turned out all right but that's my own opinion LOL.

God Speed

Sir Fatso

All right here is part of this semester's work. It is the movie Sir Fatso. In my German Film class we had a choice of making a film or writing a report so I got with some friends and made a movie. It is in German but there are subtitles. The trailer doesn't have subtitles but it it goes something like, "In a world where chaos rules. Only one man can save us from the evil wizard Ew" or something like that anyway ;-) I hope you like it.

Trailer

Never mind I'll try and load the movie at a different time . It hates me today

This Fall

Ok so it’s been while since I have been on here. All in all it’s been due to a lack of time and a computer that has a virus. So from the beginning, this semester has been chaos, but fruitful. I took 16 credits. I had Archeology in Europe, German 2010, German Film, Storytelling, World Cultures, and two lab credits. I have learned loads to far this year. Also I did fairly well. I got A’s in lab, German Film, and Archeology in Europe. I received –A’s in World Cultures and Storytelling and a +B in German 2010. All in all I think that it turned out well. I am still working on a poster for the South Western Symposium that takes place this January in Mexico. I was unable to drum up funding for it so the instructor and the other girl in the group are going to go. All in all I don’t care too much. We were going to go to the middle of the desert... I live in the desert so that doesn’t sound that fun. Plus I would have to dress up “Yuck”.
Lee and his band have been getting ready for two concerts coming up soon. On Saturday they are playing in Vernal. No screamer bands this time!!! Then on Monday they play a concert for a couple whose house burned down a few weeks ago. I hope that we have a good turn out.

Just Another Poem After Antother Day

Nothing Left for Tears

How alone is alone?
How much pain can you bear?
By heart and soul can you be crushed?
How much can they see with their stares?
To confess yourself?
To tell them how you feel,
Only pain seems to abide,
Only sorrow can be real.

To understand is too much to ask.
To hide from the pain,
Is a relief that will never last,
And help they will not deign.
Empty inside with no place to hide,
How alone do you feel with all caring past?
How alone can you be,
With a pain that will ever last?

-Haylee C. Toland

My 1st 2 Weeks Back... Hmmm.....

My first few weeks back at school have been interesting. First they took out my burnt orange shag carpet : -( this had made me very sad. The new carpet in my apartment isn’t bad but I really miss my olf carpet. As classes got, my first day in my Storytelling class we were suppose to describe something to our partner my partner like my description of the Sleeping Lady and she accidently volunteered me to give my description to the class. So first day I stood up in front of 40 people and described a mountain. My first week back felt more like the 10th week back.

This last weekend I went fishing with mom, dad, Lee, Justine, Austin, and Robert. We went to Max’s ponds and caught almost 2 coolers full of fish. The weather rocked the fishing was good.

Today was the first day of the second week I was walking with a fellow Anthropology student and walked under a group of trees when something warm and soft hit my hand. A pigeon had crapped all over my hand. The crap splattered all over my left hand, down my pants, and all over my shirt. This event gave a whole new meaning to the saying “Sometimes you’re the pigeon and sometimes you are the statue”. To add to this a few years ago Lex gave me a Peruvian bracelet to ward off the evil eye. I just happened to be wearing it today and poop landed right on top of it. LOL. I don’t know whether the evil eye was too strong or if the pigeon just doesn’t like Peru ;-). I was late for German and couldn’t stop laughing. Also just to show how the rest of the day went I got in the shower and just about shaved my legs with my toothbrush. Hmmmm. So that has been my first few weeks so far. I can think of worse ways they could start off. You know I could have had my apartment’s roof collapse on me or something J/K . All I can do at this point in time is laugh.

Well I hope that no pigeons have crapped on you lately and I wish you all luck.

The Randomness of my life

Ever had one of those days where you just can’t get your mind to do what you want? Ever had one of those months? I swear that all creativity has been sucked out of my being and now I am left with a normal and mundane empty shell. What on earth is a person supposed to do with a brain like that? Honestly how does this work? All I want to do is sleep. It really is like all of the imaginative thoughts that I poses are gone, fled to some far away land where I cannot even dream of following, what the hell is going on? Why am I left behind? All in all this is driving me crazy so if anyone anywhere has a remedy let me know. I am awaiting your answer on tender hooks. Just make this nightmare of a complete creativity block cease.
I sometimes wonder if all off my creativity was used up in helping the band. Maybe my brain just needs a break, but my (all be it slight and wavering) sanity is suffering. Any who, speaking of the band here is what the CD looks like at least the inserts and such. I hope you like them and that they are a testament to the creativity I seem to no longer be able to experience. Sigh.

This is the inside of the CD remeber that this kinda folds like a "z"

This one is the cover. This one and the one above go back to back so you and kinda get an idea of what it looks like.

This one is the back of the CD

And these chapps look out at you from behind the CD



(Back to Venting ;-)

In due time I suppose that the arts shall return to me and when they do I hope that I shall be able to regain what mind I have left, and as I have now rambled for 2 whole paragraphs about absolutely nothing. I shall say my the fates prove to love you and my randomness favor you ;-)

Another Week

Ok so I’ve been waiting a year to get my master bathroom done and finally it is done. The sad thing is we really haven’t been working on it for a year it has just taken us a year to find the time to get everything worked out :-P

So here are some pics of it. They are kinda strange because the room isn’t very big and it doesn’t have very much light.

We’ve done all of the work ourselves including redoing our shower. It didn’t have cement board behind it when we took down the old tile, it had sheetrock and of it was rotting (no surprise there). To get the pic of what it looked like before imagine a pastel pale pink room with matching counter and green and pink tile with gray ‘marble’ laminated flooring. (I like it much better now;-)
We were given the granite countertop. It got dropping in shipping and so was going to be thrown away and so we snatched it up.

The showerhead set that we got is amazing. The showerhead freaking rocks!! Sad I to get so happy about a showerhead I know but it really is that good LOL. The handle has a temperature adjust handle and that you can lock to where to like it and the shut off valve is separate. (Ok yeah I’m a hick who’s not used to this kind of stuff so yeah I think it’s cool). The pumps on the sink were a happy mistake. We bought the faucet and then when we went to put everything in we found out that two of the holes didn’t line up so we put pumps in them so happy accident LOL. So as soon as we put up some trim and find the rest of the door we have a finished bathroom.:-)

In other news I have my husband’s family coming over this Saturday. (I was volunteered for that). So I have been cleaning my house like mad. Hawk got fixed and his’ the only one of my cats that will talk to me (go figure) . I think that the other two are mad because I brought him back LOL. In short after this week ( and its only Wednesday) I am ready for bed @ 8:00pm. On that note I think I’m going to go to bed; at least I’m going to try. The guys have been practicing and recording every night for three weeks and they are kind enough to end practice at around 11:30 to 12:00. It’s been a long few weeks.

Well that’s all for now. Good night and God Speed.

P.S. I’m still loving the black hair;-)

Grrrrr!! That's right grrrrr!

Ever had one of those days were all you wanna do is scream? I’m sure you have and so you will understand what I mean when I say well…. I gonna scream. I have chemical burns all over my hands from working with grout. I spent 5 hours working on some logos for Lee’s band (after I was asked mind you) and all I got what oh great Travis can use this in the logo he’s making for the band. Grrrrrrr!!!!! Why in the heck do they ask you to do something and then tell you someone else is just going to use the stuff you busted your butt to make for them without thanks, or great we’ll see if Travis wants to use it in his design. I was suppose to make the design! Why did I just waste my time?! I don’t mind him doing it but….. GRRRRRRR!!! Will people make up their minds and when they do will they freaking let me know? On top of that I clean up after the band and have put up with practice for almost every night for a month (in my house). I cook dinner for all of them, take their pics for the band and edit their stuff and everything without thanks or we like …………. Place your choice here. If I say anything about any of it, I’m a jerk.
Ok wheew ,now that’s over I’ll continue with the rest of my life. Possibly due to the problems mentioned above I have gone through some physi

cal changes. I now have black hair and four piercings in my ears.

Yeah I know that the piercings are going to piss some people off but oh well. No I’m not going goth I just wanted to do some stuff that I’ve wanted to for a long time. Lol! Yeah I’m sounding kinda mad aren’t I and I think it might be in both meaning of the term. Hmmmm…. Oh well…..
SIGH! What can I say it’s been a long few months Lol. Maybe I just need some timeout, but if I do who knows what will happen.
Hope all is well for everyone else and if I get turned in for homicide you’ll all know at least a small part of why.
God Speed.

I'm free! I'm free! ............Dang it!

Ok soooo…. it’s been a while. All I can say is that I have been working my butt off but man it is lookin’ good. The lowest grade that I got this semester is a B+ so I can live with that. My exhibit is done and I thought that I had some pics of it, but I was wrong. I had to shovel out my house when I got home but things are looking good.
Cleaning my apartment sucked. The guy who inspected it wanted to write me up for a smudge on the doorway and a few pieces of dust on the back of the toilet. Needless to say it pissed me off, but I got to stay in the hotel with the largest pool in Utah and I had a chocolate French silk pie… ummm… umm … good! Now I just need to think about what on earth I am going to do this summer. Right now I am really burned out.
I have aced my written motorcycle test :-) but the riding it kicking my .........:-( well you get the point. My whole right leg is covered in bruises from my attempt, and my left knee is scraped up. I’m still trying to figure out how I’m suppose to rid the bike and… well not the other way around. Hmm… according to Lee it’s just dumb luck, but we will see.
My cats have missed me… yeah my life is that sad… my cats actually miss me. I’m not sure which is sadder the fact that they do actually miss me or that it would bug me if they didn’t? Hum… yep I’m sad.
FYI this is going to be short… my brain still hasn’t recovered from school and I think my eyes have forgot that the need to stay open some of the time.
Oh yeah one last thing. The new mix I put on my blog (I couldn’t get to my old one… I’m not quite sure why) any way it’s not edited. I couldn’t find the edited songs so just to warn you if you care that much. If not I hope that you like it. It might give you whip lash. There are a lot of good songs together that just don’t really match…. :-/ Shrug… oh well. As soon as I find my cord for my camera I’ll upload some pics from my museum opening. It rocked, but I’ll tell you about that when I get some pics up.

:-)