This Fall

Ok so it’s been while since I have been on here. All in all it’s been due to a lack of time and a computer that has a virus. So from the beginning, this semester has been chaos, but fruitful. I took 16 credits. I had Archeology in Europe, German 2010, German Film, Storytelling, World Cultures, and two lab credits. I have learned loads to far this year. Also I did fairly well. I got A’s in lab, German Film, and Archeology in Europe. I received –A’s in World Cultures and Storytelling and a +B in German 2010. All in all I think that it turned out well. I am still working on a poster for the South Western Symposium that takes place this January in Mexico. I was unable to drum up funding for it so the instructor and the other girl in the group are going to go. All in all I don’t care too much. We were going to go to the middle of the desert... I live in the desert so that doesn’t sound that fun. Plus I would have to dress up “Yuck”.
Lee and his band have been getting ready for two concerts coming up soon. On Saturday they are playing in Vernal. No screamer bands this time!!! Then on Monday they play a concert for a couple whose house burned down a few weeks ago. I hope that we have a good turn out.

Just Another Poem After Antother Day

Nothing Left for Tears

How alone is alone?
How much pain can you bear?
By heart and soul can you be crushed?
How much can they see with their stares?
To confess yourself?
To tell them how you feel,
Only pain seems to abide,
Only sorrow can be real.

To understand is too much to ask.
To hide from the pain,
Is a relief that will never last,
And help they will not deign.
Empty inside with no place to hide,
How alone do you feel with all caring past?
How alone can you be,
With a pain that will ever last?

-Haylee C. Toland

My 1st 2 Weeks Back... Hmmm.....

My first few weeks back at school have been interesting. First they took out my burnt orange shag carpet : -( this had made me very sad. The new carpet in my apartment isn’t bad but I really miss my olf carpet. As classes got, my first day in my Storytelling class we were suppose to describe something to our partner my partner like my description of the Sleeping Lady and she accidently volunteered me to give my description to the class. So first day I stood up in front of 40 people and described a mountain. My first week back felt more like the 10th week back.

This last weekend I went fishing with mom, dad, Lee, Justine, Austin, and Robert. We went to Max’s ponds and caught almost 2 coolers full of fish. The weather rocked the fishing was good.

Today was the first day of the second week I was walking with a fellow Anthropology student and walked under a group of trees when something warm and soft hit my hand. A pigeon had crapped all over my hand. The crap splattered all over my left hand, down my pants, and all over my shirt. This event gave a whole new meaning to the saying “Sometimes you’re the pigeon and sometimes you are the statue”. To add to this a few years ago Lex gave me a Peruvian bracelet to ward off the evil eye. I just happened to be wearing it today and poop landed right on top of it. LOL. I don’t know whether the evil eye was too strong or if the pigeon just doesn’t like Peru ;-). I was late for German and couldn’t stop laughing. Also just to show how the rest of the day went I got in the shower and just about shaved my legs with my toothbrush. Hmmmm. So that has been my first few weeks so far. I can think of worse ways they could start off. You know I could have had my apartment’s roof collapse on me or something J/K . All I can do at this point in time is laugh.

Well I hope that no pigeons have crapped on you lately and I wish you all luck.

The Randomness of my life

Ever had one of those days where you just can’t get your mind to do what you want? Ever had one of those months? I swear that all creativity has been sucked out of my being and now I am left with a normal and mundane empty shell. What on earth is a person supposed to do with a brain like that? Honestly how does this work? All I want to do is sleep. It really is like all of the imaginative thoughts that I poses are gone, fled to some far away land where I cannot even dream of following, what the hell is going on? Why am I left behind? All in all this is driving me crazy so if anyone anywhere has a remedy let me know. I am awaiting your answer on tender hooks. Just make this nightmare of a complete creativity block cease.
I sometimes wonder if all off my creativity was used up in helping the band. Maybe my brain just needs a break, but my (all be it slight and wavering) sanity is suffering. Any who, speaking of the band here is what the CD looks like at least the inserts and such. I hope you like them and that they are a testament to the creativity I seem to no longer be able to experience. Sigh.

This is the inside of the CD remeber that this kinda folds like a "z"

This one is the cover. This one and the one above go back to back so you and kinda get an idea of what it looks like.

This one is the back of the CD

And these chapps look out at you from behind the CD



(Back to Venting ;-)

In due time I suppose that the arts shall return to me and when they do I hope that I shall be able to regain what mind I have left, and as I have now rambled for 2 whole paragraphs about absolutely nothing. I shall say my the fates prove to love you and my randomness favor you ;-)

Another Week

Ok so I’ve been waiting a year to get my master bathroom done and finally it is done. The sad thing is we really haven’t been working on it for a year it has just taken us a year to find the time to get everything worked out :-P

So here are some pics of it. They are kinda strange because the room isn’t very big and it doesn’t have very much light.

We’ve done all of the work ourselves including redoing our shower. It didn’t have cement board behind it when we took down the old tile, it had sheetrock and of it was rotting (no surprise there). To get the pic of what it looked like before imagine a pastel pale pink room with matching counter and green and pink tile with gray ‘marble’ laminated flooring. (I like it much better now;-)
We were given the granite countertop. It got dropping in shipping and so was going to be thrown away and so we snatched it up.

The showerhead set that we got is amazing. The showerhead freaking rocks!! Sad I to get so happy about a showerhead I know but it really is that good LOL. The handle has a temperature adjust handle and that you can lock to where to like it and the shut off valve is separate. (Ok yeah I’m a hick who’s not used to this kind of stuff so yeah I think it’s cool). The pumps on the sink were a happy mistake. We bought the faucet and then when we went to put everything in we found out that two of the holes didn’t line up so we put pumps in them so happy accident LOL. So as soon as we put up some trim and find the rest of the door we have a finished bathroom.:-)

In other news I have my husband’s family coming over this Saturday. (I was volunteered for that). So I have been cleaning my house like mad. Hawk got fixed and his’ the only one of my cats that will talk to me (go figure) . I think that the other two are mad because I brought him back LOL. In short after this week ( and its only Wednesday) I am ready for bed @ 8:00pm. On that note I think I’m going to go to bed; at least I’m going to try. The guys have been practicing and recording every night for three weeks and they are kind enough to end practice at around 11:30 to 12:00. It’s been a long few weeks.

Well that’s all for now. Good night and God Speed.

P.S. I’m still loving the black hair;-)

Grrrrr!! That's right grrrrr!

Ever had one of those days were all you wanna do is scream? I’m sure you have and so you will understand what I mean when I say well…. I gonna scream. I have chemical burns all over my hands from working with grout. I spent 5 hours working on some logos for Lee’s band (after I was asked mind you) and all I got what oh great Travis can use this in the logo he’s making for the band. Grrrrrrr!!!!! Why in the heck do they ask you to do something and then tell you someone else is just going to use the stuff you busted your butt to make for them without thanks, or great we’ll see if Travis wants to use it in his design. I was suppose to make the design! Why did I just waste my time?! I don’t mind him doing it but….. GRRRRRRR!!! Will people make up their minds and when they do will they freaking let me know? On top of that I clean up after the band and have put up with practice for almost every night for a month (in my house). I cook dinner for all of them, take their pics for the band and edit their stuff and everything without thanks or we like …………. Place your choice here. If I say anything about any of it, I’m a jerk.
Ok wheew ,now that’s over I’ll continue with the rest of my life. Possibly due to the problems mentioned above I have gone through some physi

cal changes. I now have black hair and four piercings in my ears.

Yeah I know that the piercings are going to piss some people off but oh well. No I’m not going goth I just wanted to do some stuff that I’ve wanted to for a long time. Lol! Yeah I’m sounding kinda mad aren’t I and I think it might be in both meaning of the term. Hmmmm…. Oh well…..
SIGH! What can I say it’s been a long few months Lol. Maybe I just need some timeout, but if I do who knows what will happen.
Hope all is well for everyone else and if I get turned in for homicide you’ll all know at least a small part of why.
God Speed.

I'm free! I'm free! ............Dang it!

Ok soooo…. it’s been a while. All I can say is that I have been working my butt off but man it is lookin’ good. The lowest grade that I got this semester is a B+ so I can live with that. My exhibit is done and I thought that I had some pics of it, but I was wrong. I had to shovel out my house when I got home but things are looking good.
Cleaning my apartment sucked. The guy who inspected it wanted to write me up for a smudge on the doorway and a few pieces of dust on the back of the toilet. Needless to say it pissed me off, but I got to stay in the hotel with the largest pool in Utah and I had a chocolate French silk pie… ummm… umm … good! Now I just need to think about what on earth I am going to do this summer. Right now I am really burned out.
I have aced my written motorcycle test :-) but the riding it kicking my .........:-( well you get the point. My whole right leg is covered in bruises from my attempt, and my left knee is scraped up. I’m still trying to figure out how I’m suppose to rid the bike and… well not the other way around. Hmm… according to Lee it’s just dumb luck, but we will see.
My cats have missed me… yeah my life is that sad… my cats actually miss me. I’m not sure which is sadder the fact that they do actually miss me or that it would bug me if they didn’t? Hum… yep I’m sad.
FYI this is going to be short… my brain still hasn’t recovered from school and I think my eyes have forgot that the need to stay open some of the time.
Oh yeah one last thing. The new mix I put on my blog (I couldn’t get to my old one… I’m not quite sure why) any way it’s not edited. I couldn’t find the edited songs so just to warn you if you care that much. If not I hope that you like it. It might give you whip lash. There are a lot of good songs together that just don’t really match…. :-/ Shrug… oh well. As soon as I find my cord for my camera I’ll upload some pics from my museum opening. It rocked, but I’ll tell you about that when I get some pics up.

:-)