To keep with what I was saying

So since what I last posted today was to happy and so forth. I've been listening to some of my dad's favorite songs and I found this poem that my friend gave me when dad died. I really liked it so I thought I would post it in case someone else might like it too.

...Do not stand at my grave and weep;
I am not there, I do not sleep.
I am a thousand winds that blow;
I am the diamond glints in snow;
I am the sunlight on ripened grain;
I am the gentle autumn rain.
I am the swift, uplifting rush
Of quiet birds in circled flight;
I am the soft stars that shine at night.
Do not stand at my grave and cry:
I am not there. I did not die.

Where to start??

So I think that it has been even longer since I have posted anything (I seem to say that a lot). To tell the truth I have been a bit depressed. This last semester has been the hardest so far, but I made it through and passed all of my classes. Woot! I have a class that I am really not looking forward to this semester but sigh what can I say. You do what you gotta do.

This Christmas was crazy. I was supposed to spend it with Lex and Barlow but no joy. We had a snow storm that was insane. We got over 3 feet of snow and there was no way in heck we would make it. Instead I made gingerbread cookies and ended up having enough for all the kids that showed up to school to decorate one. I went to my in-laws for Christmas and that was as crazy as usual ;-)

We have ripped out our old fireplace insert and have just the old stone fireplace and it rocks, even though it is messy.

I got to spend New Years at Lex's place with her, Barlow and his parents. Lee didn't get to go because he had to work. I had a lot of fun and got to see some awsome places. I have to say that they live in a beautiful place.

Sorry this is kinda random but I'm trying to remember a lot of things at once. lol.

The thing that has taken me most by surprise is how much I missed dad for Christmas. It was one of his least favorite holidays but it feels so wrong not having him here any more. After all of these months I still can't really believe it. I try not to let the loss consume my thoughts but at times it is all I can do to keep from crying. I look at the testimony that he carved into one of his pots and miss him even more. I regret the times when I could have spent more time with him and every moment that I ever got annoyed with him. Dad and I usually got along and I loved every moment that I spent with him, but those few that were different are things that I regret so much now. I wonder if we will ever understand the hole that we leave in other's lives when we are gone. What has been surprising is the amount of people who I have never met before telling me how much they miss my dad. Sometimes I wonder if I really knew my dad, but at the same time I think you can spend most of your life with someone and still not know everything about them.

The First 3 Week 2010

Ok so its been a while since I have posted anything. I started this semester with 19 credits. One Bio class, one class in Osteology, two higher German classes, Intercultural communications and a Managing Information Systems class. My ostio class requires about 7hr in the lab per week so I dropped one of my German classes that was kicking my butt. It was German lit and we were reading Old German the equivalent of Old English only in German ;-) Having done this I think I can make it through this semester. Before I had to miss classes so that I could get all of my home work done (not a good thing) and I still didn't get it all done.

Right now I am listening to America's Greatest Hits and thinking about my dad. Half of these songs I heard on the radio while we were working in the shop together. I remember one time he was throwing a pot and The Sandman came on and I realized that it followed the exact beat of the kick wheel and the flow of the clay while dad was using it. Its kind of crazy to be so sad and so happy at the same time lol. I still have to say that not being able to talk to my dad hurts like heck. I've learned so much already this semester and he's not here to tell. I also found a crazy kind of fungus growing in my fountain at home and I would like to know what kind it is before I Clorox it but dad's not here to ask. I still can't believe my dad is gone even though it has been so long. I still say goodbye to dad every time I leave for school. Its kind of an odd thing but it just feels wrong to not say goodbye to him.

On a (Less depressing) side note I have dyed my hair three times since my last post. I went from my natural red hair to black with orange streaks to black with red streaks and now I am currently sporting a chocolate brown. I have no idea why anyone would really care but this shows how random my mental proses has been.

Also I broke out the window in my apartment. It was an accident. I got locked out... well I couldn't find my keys. I had just gone shopping and my keys were no longer with me. You see the sliding part of the window can be moved a little so I thought I could break into my own apartment but... ummm.... it was a very good design and the window flexed and crash! Glass everywhere. The sucky thing was I was still locked out of my apartment. So I went to the office of the people who run the apartment and pulled into a parking stall, got out of my car and found my keys laying right next to my door. (I can't make this stuff up). So in the end I found my keys and I have to $130 to replace my window but I currently have a patch job and glass all over my floor (this happened the 3rd of Sep) and I still forgot to bring my vacuum up. So there you have it, my first few weeks at school this semester. Ah yes, some weeks just make you wanna scream ;-)

(If this post makes absolutely no sense to anyone I blame either my totally overloaded schedule of the last few weeks or America's Greatest Hits that reminded me of dad :-D)

The Willow Trees

This is a poem that I wrote in memory of my dad who I miss and love so much. It doesn't say everything I would like to say but there are some things that the English language is not capable of. It is just crazy to me how we can use words everyday but still never truly say what we feel or mean.

The Willow Tree

Calmly sings the willow leaves among the twining trees

Sweetly sings the autumn breeze among the stormy seas.

All these things you told me if trades long forgot

All these things you taught me of how the earth was wrought.

Of tales long told ad worlds unknown

That dreams in life were sown

In this world your life unfurled 'til breath had met its end

No more wisdom can you give to me, or hope and guidance send.

Now I learn of love and loss

And how a smile my pain must cross.

For now you sleep beneath the trees your pain has met its end,

But now my pain shall take some time for life to mend.

So sleep well in the silent seas and view the bright clear skies,

And learn of life and things unknown where pain no longer cries.

The willow leaves still calmly sing among the twining trees.

The autumn breeze yet sings among the stormy seas.

The begning of summer 2010

Ok so its been a while since I have posted anything lol.

Finals went ok this time, my lowest grad was a B so I think I can live with that.

I got two weeks off to go home. The last day before I had to go back to Logan we went fishing at Max's pond. Lee and I went with Robert, mom, dad, and Andrew. Andrew had bad luck for the first little while but in the end he ended up with the biggest fish wighing in at 10lbs. I think he might have been a but happy about that ;-)

The next day I had to go back to Logan to do some classroom training for the Acreological field school this summer. After the classroom work we headed out. We went to The Stinking Springs Rock Shelter in Teton National park. There was alot of mistakes and alot of being yelled at. We have two profs working with us and they have differant ideas about what should be done how. This means that even if you do what you are told, you still get yelled at by the other guy :-/ They guys on the crew are reallly great though and the profs are good guys even if they don't always comunicate lol. Below are some pics of what we did. We excivated two units and screened everything through 1/8 inch screen. It was a lot of work and took alot of time. We also had to do some field work in the lab.

We got the chance to stay at a historic cabin at a research station in the park and that was amazing. We were right on the edge of Jackson Lake and it was beatuiful. The weather was rainy and stayed around 60 degrees ish. I leave again on Tuesday to go for my second 10 day rotation. It is going to be something new and it should prove to be intersting lol. Hopefuly things go better than the 1st ;-)

And Time Goes On :-P

All right so what can I say this time? In truth there is not much to say. All though I must say that this semester has sucked LOL. :-P I'm just not getting into my classes and I feel like I am constantly running my butt off. My brain is drained and I really jsut can't care about much save my German class. I really like that class but the others... yeah, not so much :-/Other than that life has been normal.

Oh yeah I have purpel hair now

A few weeks ago I got back from a thing on Capotol Hill (in Utah) where I presented some of my research. I work up @ 5 am so I could get on the bus @ 6 and drive to SLC... bleh. It was one whole day of biz cloths, standing on a marble floor for hours, and talking to politicians and reporters. At least lunch was good ;-)

I hate this pic :-/

Here are some pics that I took on my way back to Logan the other day. I thought they were cool.

That's about it for me right now. Oh, I am also working on some stuff for a Co. that Robert is trying to get up and running. I thought I learned never to do anything for free but.... LOL I guess not. So far all I have done are the biz cards and the logo

Ok so hopefully I will talk to you later. If not hahaha... yeah :-D You know how months like this go ;-)

Weeks Of Chirstmas 2009

Hey everybody!

So the last few days have been great. The guys had a great turn out in Saturday night. Not loads of people but a great crowd no the less. Last night was amazing though. Out of only like 40-50 people they made over 2,170 for Frankie and Chaz! Plus a 6ft table worth of gifts. I think that most of the crowd had fun. I know that some people were impressed by the music but I think most were impressed by what was accomplished. These two actually have something now and its is awsome.



At the moment I am at my parents house taking care of the animals waiting for the frozen water dishes to unfreeze. It is snowing here once again :-) some people say it sucks but the more snow we have the more water we'll have later and plus what is Christmas without snow? Exactly! I only wish that I could get me feet to warm up but eh that's winter in the Basin for ya.


I'm still trying to figure out a trick to load Sir Fatso on to this Blogg but... we'll see. If you wanna see it and you are on my Facebook, I had to split it into two parts (they won't let you post anything over 20 min and the movie is 26 min. I think that it's lame but... oh well). I hope everyone is having a good Holiday Season. I am looking forward to Christmas, I think it should be a good one this year. (Mostly I just wanna see everyone open their gifts, that's my favorite part:-)


This year I am also trying my hand and making ornaments for the Christmas Tree. I think it had turned out all right but that's my own opinion LOL.

God Speed