I'm free! I'm free! ............Dang it!

Ok soooo…. it’s been a while. All I can say is that I have been working my butt off but man it is lookin’ good. The lowest grade that I got this semester is a B+ so I can live with that. My exhibit is done and I thought that I had some pics of it, but I was wrong. I had to shovel out my house when I got home but things are looking good.
Cleaning my apartment sucked. The guy who inspected it wanted to write me up for a smudge on the doorway and a few pieces of dust on the back of the toilet. Needless to say it pissed me off, but I got to stay in the hotel with the largest pool in Utah and I had a chocolate French silk pie… ummm… umm … good! Now I just need to think about what on earth I am going to do this summer. Right now I am really burned out.
I have aced my written motorcycle test :-) but the riding it kicking my .........:-( well you get the point. My whole right leg is covered in bruises from my attempt, and my left knee is scraped up. I’m still trying to figure out how I’m suppose to rid the bike and… well not the other way around. Hmm… according to Lee it’s just dumb luck, but we will see.
My cats have missed me… yeah my life is that sad… my cats actually miss me. I’m not sure which is sadder the fact that they do actually miss me or that it would bug me if they didn’t? Hum… yep I’m sad.
FYI this is going to be short… my brain still hasn’t recovered from school and I think my eyes have forgot that the need to stay open some of the time.
Oh yeah one last thing. The new mix I put on my blog (I couldn’t get to my old one… I’m not quite sure why) any way it’s not edited. I couldn’t find the edited songs so just to warn you if you care that much. If not I hope that you like it. It might give you whip lash. There are a lot of good songs together that just don’t really match…. :-/ Shrug… oh well. As soon as I find my cord for my camera I’ll upload some pics from my museum opening. It rocked, but I’ll tell you about that when I get some pics up.

:-)

Hummmm Nitch So Gut :-/

Its been a while since I have entered anything but all I can say is whoopee :-/ . It’s been one of those days, weeks, months, years, lives whatever you want to say. In this week I have been told I’m not LDS and that I am going to hell because I drink coffee and that because I drink coffee I am no better than those people who rip someone else apart just cuz they like to, and I was told all of this by my ‘friends’. I also have been yelled at fist stuff that wasn’t my fault and told I was an idiot, and yeah…. So this week has… Well… SUCKED!!! :-P How come it always seems that when you really want to spend time with.. someone… anyone… there is no one around or willing to do something? Yeah I know I’m just pouting but hey we all have to do that now and then right?
On a better note I don’t think that I’m flunking any classes yet and it has been warm here :-) The weather had been great! It makes a person restless. I keep thinking that I might be able to go do something but I don’t know what :-/ On the up side I have written some more poems. I had to write one for my counseling session.
The Pool

Words can spin and words can fly,
Past the earth and past the sky,
To a pool that no life can see,
To the waters where no soul can sail free.
It is the place of dank and death,
And past the touch of life’s long breath.
Lays a life that this death has claimed,
Though its soul is still battered and maimed,
As a soul tortured; lost in ages of pain,
A life with hidden fears it shall contain.
In this pool of pain and rot,
Has not hope a soul brought,
But to the day and to the sun,
Comes a new tale that fait has spun.
Through the pain and bitter despair,
Has one come with light and bright flair,
And with one hand can lift a dead soul,
To a land hope can control.
Through the death and through the gloom,
Past the space where despair can loom,
Just one hand to escape the death,
Just one more chance to feel life’s long breath.

By: Haylee C. Toland
Some people like it some don’t but that’s normal. I wrote a song to go in one of my books too.


The warm sun touches the rich ripe field
Then summer may come and winter is killed
But the day soon grows short and the chill it comes
All will fade away my dear but all shall fade away

The pale moon graces the fare maiden’s hair
The young man holds her without a care
But time will pass for and age appear
All will fade away my dear but all shall fade away.

The young man grows the old man knows
That time will pass with endless woes
The young man sees nothing but now
All will fade away my dear, but all shall fade away.

Winter may fall and spring may come
The girls they dance with laugh and fun
But all too soon age will come
All will fade away my dear but all shall fade away



The young man rides to war to fight,
He gallops away with no foresight
His mother she know to home he may not come
For all must fade away my dear but shall fade away.

For here we ride and here we are come
To see what life our heart have the sum
And young and old our fait must succumb
For all must fade away my dear for all shall fade away.

By Haylee

Not going to use it all but there it is. You guys are the first to read it so take it as you will.
I also bought a new guitar he’s a beauty. Its’ almost exactly like my 1st one but it’s the newer version. His names Trayson and he rocks!!!!

Well I think that’s all my rambling for today.
God Speed ;-)

Survival? Hey take that world I made it! (Two points for me)

So I made it through the first week! Woot! Oh yeah! Give it up!

Now only an eternity left and I’m free :-( hum maybe I shouldn’t get too ecstatic just yet. I have more term papers than I have ever had in my life which in some classes means that I don’t have any finals and some it just mean I have something else due at the same time. Plus it seems that about 10% of the faculty is going to be cut here at USU and so I may not be able to get my degree like I was hoping. Hmm some days it seems that the fates really hate me and thus they suck… but on the up side it may not be as bad as it seems. There is a chance that they will keep the good ones and get rid of those who are more like the Devil himself, but I digress. All in all it is not a good time to be a student here at USU, but ‘Shrug’ what can you do? Press on that’s the key, plus well if I can’t finish I suppose it wasn’t meant to be (sigh).

On a different note I am broke. Yep I have whopping $38 dollars to my name. That’s what happens when you have to get your car worked on and such not but oh well it’s just paper right. (Paper that is really nice to have and is a strange color of green. Hmmm… I wonder why they chose green?) The plus sides to my life right now is my groovy apartment is now clean. Happy days! I just finished a really good book (for fun even!). It was called the Sirens Song and it’s the second book to the Coronus Chronicles; a very sarcastic series. I love it. Now I have to scavenge for another good book, but that shouldn’t be too hard. If anyone has any recommendations let me know. I’m always up for a good read. Nothing too dry please I have to read too many of those as it is thank you very much. Anthropology books tend to be torture rather than fun. “Sigh” I suppose that’s what you get with a degree that doesn’t include writing classes. Alas good literature I knew you well!

On the plus side I’m getting closer to having the exhibit that I’ve been working on done and with any luck we’ll be able to open in February. That will be a load off and it will be very, very cool. I know a lot of people are a little apprehensive to look at it and it make me smile. For those of you who don’t know it’s on body modifications and I’ve had a lot of people who quote “feel guilty” looking at it. It makes me laugh. There’s a book in the Anthropology Museum that we’ve been using and one of the girls working there looked at it and she said she felt really guilty looking at it. She read the chapter on scalping and she said it was kind of disturbing. I must say that I haven’t had to read about scalping people so I think it might be, but I think she picked a bad chapter to start with :-)

Any way, I must contemplate in the purpose of the universe so… God Speed.

1st Try

Ok here it goes. My fist ever blog! Hmmm. Well as I have been asked to give this a try here it goes! Ready or not.

Well I’m here in wonderful Logan wishing I was home. It really doesn’t have much to do with Logan itself really it’s more the living 260 some odd miles from my husband. Plus I really don’t have too many friends here but (shrug)… My areas of study are Anthropology, Linguistics, German and Museum Studies. It all sounds a lot more impressive than it really is. I’m standing on the precipice of a new semester and I’m not too sure about what to think. Last semester… well it sucked, but I have hopes that this one will be better and if not I only have 4 more to go :-/...hmm maybe I shouldn’t be so cheery.

One thing that I do have to say is that I do like my apartment save for the fact that I have a door that is sealed shut and leads into my neighbors’ apartment and well I wish I did not have to hear some of their activities (if you get my drift) luckily they invented noise canceling headphone… Now if I could just afford a set I would be sailin’.

All in all I like my apartment. It’s only four something a month and that includes utilities and Du du du du! :-0 Shag carpet! Yes that’s right we are talkin’ vintage shag burnt orange and everything. Ohhh yeah! Groovy. I have one window that gives an outstanding view of the parking lot (no hot cars though). As a bonus I have a demonic stove that goes from icy cold to atomic in ten seconds flat. I also have my very own bathroom (which is key) and is a good thing cuz well I live alone. Plus I have nothing to steal so the whole alone thing isn’t too bad. The lack of pricey stuff I think has to do with the whole married only two years and I’m still going to college. So yeah ‘Welcome to Brokevill! Population… Me.’

The whole groovy apartment thing lead to a new book idea that I am having fun with. I have been working on another one for 8 years. Yeah that’s right 8 and I’m still not done and I have a mega writer’s block… again, but some day I shall publish! (I think).

Any who I start a brand spankin’ new semester at wonderful USU tomorrow and.... :-( and well…. We’ll see how it goes.