Weeks I & II Spring Semester 2011 (here we go again)

So where to start? Well lets go with the beginning. I was actually looking forward to this semester. I have some hard profs this time but I thought heck I only have 15 credits....shouldn't be too bad right? Wrong! i miss my very first class this semester and its a Intro Political Research... this means I know nothing about it. Get to my Intro to German Studies and it is great. I go to my German Phonetics class and it rocks too. I heard from my online prof before the semester even started and have a 500 word page paper due every week. I thought that wouldn't be that bad, but you see he wants it to be a "highly polished" essay :-/ and the readings for the weeks are about 60-90 in the class. I get into my Capstone for Cultural Anthropology. Haha I am the only Archeology person in the class ( a no duh moment) but the sad part is I can't really put up with all the "touchy feely " crap that some of them spout (if you are one of my friends you can rest assured that you are not one of them ;-) In fact that would not bother me if some of them even thought about what they were saying but alas they do not. So in that class I have more HW than really should be legal for an undergrad course but I think that is just how this semester is going lol.

Last Thursday I got in a wreck in I-15 due to idiots and ice. Some people went off the road others freaked when they saw some cars on the side o

f the road and thought "hey this is a good time to stop." Never mind the fact that we were on a 75mph road during rush hour and the rain and turned to ice, no now was a great time to stop. I started fishtailing and I got it back under control... then I got hit from behind. Stated sliding sideways (still on the HWY). Well I got the whole sliding thing taken care of, got off the road and waited 'til I could get over to the other side of the road so that we could wait for the tow truck.

My Poor Baby (aka: the aftermath)

Luckily Lee was ahead of me and was able to pick me up as I couldn't drive my car any more. I make it home and get to the doctor, find out that I have torn up some muscles in my back and that's about (but minor though it is, I do not recommend it. In truth I think it has turned me into a raging psycho with and even shorter fuse than normal lol. If you don't believe me just ask Lee)

So I get back to school and find that I have left my parking permit home in Lee's car. I decide to park on a "street" type thing by my apartment so that I don't have to pay the $75 for not having my permit. The police never ticket there but the night I park there, they do. On the same day that I find the ticket my kitchen skin clogs up and so I can't even finish doing my dishes. I the lose my phone, have to write a report and then help give a presentation.

LOL so that is the update for this semester so far. I would love to give some good news but I am kind of lacking... wait! The day I got home some of my friends bought me a Coldstone ice cream. Yep,that rocked. I do have some great and totally awsome friends and family ;-)

To keep with what I was saying

So since what I last posted today was to happy and so forth. I've been listening to some of my dad's favorite songs and I found this poem that my friend gave me when dad died. I really liked it so I thought I would post it in case someone else might like it too.

...Do not stand at my grave and weep;
I am not there, I do not sleep.
I am a thousand winds that blow;
I am the diamond glints in snow;
I am the sunlight on ripened grain;
I am the gentle autumn rain.
I am the swift, uplifting rush
Of quiet birds in circled flight;
I am the soft stars that shine at night.
Do not stand at my grave and cry:
I am not there. I did not die.

Where to start??

So I think that it has been even longer since I have posted anything (I seem to say that a lot). To tell the truth I have been a bit depressed. This last semester has been the hardest so far, but I made it through and passed all of my classes. Woot! I have a class that I am really not looking forward to this semester but sigh what can I say. You do what you gotta do.

This Christmas was crazy. I was supposed to spend it with Lex and Barlow but no joy. We had a snow storm that was insane. We got over 3 feet of snow and there was no way in heck we would make it. Instead I made gingerbread cookies and ended up having enough for all the kids that showed up to school to decorate one. I went to my in-laws for Christmas and that was as crazy as usual ;-)

We have ripped out our old fireplace insert and have just the old stone fireplace and it rocks, even though it is messy.

I got to spend New Years at Lex's place with her, Barlow and his parents. Lee didn't get to go because he had to work. I had a lot of fun and got to see some awsome places. I have to say that they live in a beautiful place.

Sorry this is kinda random but I'm trying to remember a lot of things at once. lol.

The thing that has taken me most by surprise is how much I missed dad for Christmas. It was one of his least favorite holidays but it feels so wrong not having him here any more. After all of these months I still can't really believe it. I try not to let the loss consume my thoughts but at times it is all I can do to keep from crying. I look at the testimony that he carved into one of his pots and miss him even more. I regret the times when I could have spent more time with him and every moment that I ever got annoyed with him. Dad and I usually got along and I loved every moment that I spent with him, but those few that were different are things that I regret so much now. I wonder if we will ever understand the hole that we leave in other's lives when we are gone. What has been surprising is the amount of people who I have never met before telling me how much they miss my dad. Sometimes I wonder if I really knew my dad, but at the same time I think you can spend most of your life with someone and still not know everything about them.