Weeks Of Chirstmas 2009

Hey everybody!

So the last few days have been great. The guys had a great turn out in Saturday night. Not loads of people but a great crowd no the less. Last night was amazing though. Out of only like 40-50 people they made over 2,170 for Frankie and Chaz! Plus a 6ft table worth of gifts. I think that most of the crowd had fun. I know that some people were impressed by the music but I think most were impressed by what was accomplished. These two actually have something now and its is awsome.



At the moment I am at my parents house taking care of the animals waiting for the frozen water dishes to unfreeze. It is snowing here once again :-) some people say it sucks but the more snow we have the more water we'll have later and plus what is Christmas without snow? Exactly! I only wish that I could get me feet to warm up but eh that's winter in the Basin for ya.


I'm still trying to figure out a trick to load Sir Fatso on to this Blogg but... we'll see. If you wanna see it and you are on my Facebook, I had to split it into two parts (they won't let you post anything over 20 min and the movie is 26 min. I think that it's lame but... oh well). I hope everyone is having a good Holiday Season. I am looking forward to Christmas, I think it should be a good one this year. (Mostly I just wanna see everyone open their gifts, that's my favorite part:-)


This year I am also trying my hand and making ornaments for the Christmas Tree. I think it had turned out all right but that's my own opinion LOL.

God Speed

Sir Fatso

All right here is part of this semester's work. It is the movie Sir Fatso. In my German Film class we had a choice of making a film or writing a report so I got with some friends and made a movie. It is in German but there are subtitles. The trailer doesn't have subtitles but it it goes something like, "In a world where chaos rules. Only one man can save us from the evil wizard Ew" or something like that anyway ;-) I hope you like it.

Trailer

Never mind I'll try and load the movie at a different time . It hates me today

This Fall

Ok so it’s been while since I have been on here. All in all it’s been due to a lack of time and a computer that has a virus. So from the beginning, this semester has been chaos, but fruitful. I took 16 credits. I had Archeology in Europe, German 2010, German Film, Storytelling, World Cultures, and two lab credits. I have learned loads to far this year. Also I did fairly well. I got A’s in lab, German Film, and Archeology in Europe. I received –A’s in World Cultures and Storytelling and a +B in German 2010. All in all I think that it turned out well. I am still working on a poster for the South Western Symposium that takes place this January in Mexico. I was unable to drum up funding for it so the instructor and the other girl in the group are going to go. All in all I don’t care too much. We were going to go to the middle of the desert... I live in the desert so that doesn’t sound that fun. Plus I would have to dress up “Yuck”.
Lee and his band have been getting ready for two concerts coming up soon. On Saturday they are playing in Vernal. No screamer bands this time!!! Then on Monday they play a concert for a couple whose house burned down a few weeks ago. I hope that we have a good turn out.

Just Another Poem After Antother Day

Nothing Left for Tears

How alone is alone?
How much pain can you bear?
By heart and soul can you be crushed?
How much can they see with their stares?
To confess yourself?
To tell them how you feel,
Only pain seems to abide,
Only sorrow can be real.

To understand is too much to ask.
To hide from the pain,
Is a relief that will never last,
And help they will not deign.
Empty inside with no place to hide,
How alone do you feel with all caring past?
How alone can you be,
With a pain that will ever last?

-Haylee C. Toland

My 1st 2 Weeks Back... Hmmm.....

My first few weeks back at school have been interesting. First they took out my burnt orange shag carpet : -( this had made me very sad. The new carpet in my apartment isn’t bad but I really miss my olf carpet. As classes got, my first day in my Storytelling class we were suppose to describe something to our partner my partner like my description of the Sleeping Lady and she accidently volunteered me to give my description to the class. So first day I stood up in front of 40 people and described a mountain. My first week back felt more like the 10th week back.

This last weekend I went fishing with mom, dad, Lee, Justine, Austin, and Robert. We went to Max’s ponds and caught almost 2 coolers full of fish. The weather rocked the fishing was good.

Today was the first day of the second week I was walking with a fellow Anthropology student and walked under a group of trees when something warm and soft hit my hand. A pigeon had crapped all over my hand. The crap splattered all over my left hand, down my pants, and all over my shirt. This event gave a whole new meaning to the saying “Sometimes you’re the pigeon and sometimes you are the statue”. To add to this a few years ago Lex gave me a Peruvian bracelet to ward off the evil eye. I just happened to be wearing it today and poop landed right on top of it. LOL. I don’t know whether the evil eye was too strong or if the pigeon just doesn’t like Peru ;-). I was late for German and couldn’t stop laughing. Also just to show how the rest of the day went I got in the shower and just about shaved my legs with my toothbrush. Hmmmm. So that has been my first few weeks so far. I can think of worse ways they could start off. You know I could have had my apartment’s roof collapse on me or something J/K . All I can do at this point in time is laugh.

Well I hope that no pigeons have crapped on you lately and I wish you all luck.

The Randomness of my life

Ever had one of those days where you just can’t get your mind to do what you want? Ever had one of those months? I swear that all creativity has been sucked out of my being and now I am left with a normal and mundane empty shell. What on earth is a person supposed to do with a brain like that? Honestly how does this work? All I want to do is sleep. It really is like all of the imaginative thoughts that I poses are gone, fled to some far away land where I cannot even dream of following, what the hell is going on? Why am I left behind? All in all this is driving me crazy so if anyone anywhere has a remedy let me know. I am awaiting your answer on tender hooks. Just make this nightmare of a complete creativity block cease.
I sometimes wonder if all off my creativity was used up in helping the band. Maybe my brain just needs a break, but my (all be it slight and wavering) sanity is suffering. Any who, speaking of the band here is what the CD looks like at least the inserts and such. I hope you like them and that they are a testament to the creativity I seem to no longer be able to experience. Sigh.

This is the inside of the CD remeber that this kinda folds like a "z"

This one is the cover. This one and the one above go back to back so you and kinda get an idea of what it looks like.

This one is the back of the CD

And these chapps look out at you from behind the CD



(Back to Venting ;-)

In due time I suppose that the arts shall return to me and when they do I hope that I shall be able to regain what mind I have left, and as I have now rambled for 2 whole paragraphs about absolutely nothing. I shall say my the fates prove to love you and my randomness favor you ;-)

Another Week

Ok so I’ve been waiting a year to get my master bathroom done and finally it is done. The sad thing is we really haven’t been working on it for a year it has just taken us a year to find the time to get everything worked out :-P

So here are some pics of it. They are kinda strange because the room isn’t very big and it doesn’t have very much light.

We’ve done all of the work ourselves including redoing our shower. It didn’t have cement board behind it when we took down the old tile, it had sheetrock and of it was rotting (no surprise there). To get the pic of what it looked like before imagine a pastel pale pink room with matching counter and green and pink tile with gray ‘marble’ laminated flooring. (I like it much better now;-)
We were given the granite countertop. It got dropping in shipping and so was going to be thrown away and so we snatched it up.

The showerhead set that we got is amazing. The showerhead freaking rocks!! Sad I to get so happy about a showerhead I know but it really is that good LOL. The handle has a temperature adjust handle and that you can lock to where to like it and the shut off valve is separate. (Ok yeah I’m a hick who’s not used to this kind of stuff so yeah I think it’s cool). The pumps on the sink were a happy mistake. We bought the faucet and then when we went to put everything in we found out that two of the holes didn’t line up so we put pumps in them so happy accident LOL. So as soon as we put up some trim and find the rest of the door we have a finished bathroom.:-)

In other news I have my husband’s family coming over this Saturday. (I was volunteered for that). So I have been cleaning my house like mad. Hawk got fixed and his’ the only one of my cats that will talk to me (go figure) . I think that the other two are mad because I brought him back LOL. In short after this week ( and its only Wednesday) I am ready for bed @ 8:00pm. On that note I think I’m going to go to bed; at least I’m going to try. The guys have been practicing and recording every night for three weeks and they are kind enough to end practice at around 11:30 to 12:00. It’s been a long few weeks.

Well that’s all for now. Good night and God Speed.

P.S. I’m still loving the black hair;-)

Grrrrr!! That's right grrrrr!

Ever had one of those days were all you wanna do is scream? I’m sure you have and so you will understand what I mean when I say well…. I gonna scream. I have chemical burns all over my hands from working with grout. I spent 5 hours working on some logos for Lee’s band (after I was asked mind you) and all I got what oh great Travis can use this in the logo he’s making for the band. Grrrrrrr!!!!! Why in the heck do they ask you to do something and then tell you someone else is just going to use the stuff you busted your butt to make for them without thanks, or great we’ll see if Travis wants to use it in his design. I was suppose to make the design! Why did I just waste my time?! I don’t mind him doing it but….. GRRRRRRR!!! Will people make up their minds and when they do will they freaking let me know? On top of that I clean up after the band and have put up with practice for almost every night for a month (in my house). I cook dinner for all of them, take their pics for the band and edit their stuff and everything without thanks or we like …………. Place your choice here. If I say anything about any of it, I’m a jerk.
Ok wheew ,now that’s over I’ll continue with the rest of my life. Possibly due to the problems mentioned above I have gone through some physi

cal changes. I now have black hair and four piercings in my ears.

Yeah I know that the piercings are going to piss some people off but oh well. No I’m not going goth I just wanted to do some stuff that I’ve wanted to for a long time. Lol! Yeah I’m sounding kinda mad aren’t I and I think it might be in both meaning of the term. Hmmmm…. Oh well…..
SIGH! What can I say it’s been a long few months Lol. Maybe I just need some timeout, but if I do who knows what will happen.
Hope all is well for everyone else and if I get turned in for homicide you’ll all know at least a small part of why.
God Speed.

I'm free! I'm free! ............Dang it!

Ok soooo…. it’s been a while. All I can say is that I have been working my butt off but man it is lookin’ good. The lowest grade that I got this semester is a B+ so I can live with that. My exhibit is done and I thought that I had some pics of it, but I was wrong. I had to shovel out my house when I got home but things are looking good.
Cleaning my apartment sucked. The guy who inspected it wanted to write me up for a smudge on the doorway and a few pieces of dust on the back of the toilet. Needless to say it pissed me off, but I got to stay in the hotel with the largest pool in Utah and I had a chocolate French silk pie… ummm… umm … good! Now I just need to think about what on earth I am going to do this summer. Right now I am really burned out.
I have aced my written motorcycle test :-) but the riding it kicking my .........:-( well you get the point. My whole right leg is covered in bruises from my attempt, and my left knee is scraped up. I’m still trying to figure out how I’m suppose to rid the bike and… well not the other way around. Hmm… according to Lee it’s just dumb luck, but we will see.
My cats have missed me… yeah my life is that sad… my cats actually miss me. I’m not sure which is sadder the fact that they do actually miss me or that it would bug me if they didn’t? Hum… yep I’m sad.
FYI this is going to be short… my brain still hasn’t recovered from school and I think my eyes have forgot that the need to stay open some of the time.
Oh yeah one last thing. The new mix I put on my blog (I couldn’t get to my old one… I’m not quite sure why) any way it’s not edited. I couldn’t find the edited songs so just to warn you if you care that much. If not I hope that you like it. It might give you whip lash. There are a lot of good songs together that just don’t really match…. :-/ Shrug… oh well. As soon as I find my cord for my camera I’ll upload some pics from my museum opening. It rocked, but I’ll tell you about that when I get some pics up.

:-)

Hummmm Nitch So Gut :-/

Its been a while since I have entered anything but all I can say is whoopee :-/ . It’s been one of those days, weeks, months, years, lives whatever you want to say. In this week I have been told I’m not LDS and that I am going to hell because I drink coffee and that because I drink coffee I am no better than those people who rip someone else apart just cuz they like to, and I was told all of this by my ‘friends’. I also have been yelled at fist stuff that wasn’t my fault and told I was an idiot, and yeah…. So this week has… Well… SUCKED!!! :-P How come it always seems that when you really want to spend time with.. someone… anyone… there is no one around or willing to do something? Yeah I know I’m just pouting but hey we all have to do that now and then right?
On a better note I don’t think that I’m flunking any classes yet and it has been warm here :-) The weather had been great! It makes a person restless. I keep thinking that I might be able to go do something but I don’t know what :-/ On the up side I have written some more poems. I had to write one for my counseling session.
The Pool

Words can spin and words can fly,
Past the earth and past the sky,
To a pool that no life can see,
To the waters where no soul can sail free.
It is the place of dank and death,
And past the touch of life’s long breath.
Lays a life that this death has claimed,
Though its soul is still battered and maimed,
As a soul tortured; lost in ages of pain,
A life with hidden fears it shall contain.
In this pool of pain and rot,
Has not hope a soul brought,
But to the day and to the sun,
Comes a new tale that fait has spun.
Through the pain and bitter despair,
Has one come with light and bright flair,
And with one hand can lift a dead soul,
To a land hope can control.
Through the death and through the gloom,
Past the space where despair can loom,
Just one hand to escape the death,
Just one more chance to feel life’s long breath.

By: Haylee C. Toland
Some people like it some don’t but that’s normal. I wrote a song to go in one of my books too.


The warm sun touches the rich ripe field
Then summer may come and winter is killed
But the day soon grows short and the chill it comes
All will fade away my dear but all shall fade away

The pale moon graces the fare maiden’s hair
The young man holds her without a care
But time will pass for and age appear
All will fade away my dear but all shall fade away.

The young man grows the old man knows
That time will pass with endless woes
The young man sees nothing but now
All will fade away my dear, but all shall fade away.

Winter may fall and spring may come
The girls they dance with laugh and fun
But all too soon age will come
All will fade away my dear but all shall fade away



The young man rides to war to fight,
He gallops away with no foresight
His mother she know to home he may not come
For all must fade away my dear but shall fade away.

For here we ride and here we are come
To see what life our heart have the sum
And young and old our fait must succumb
For all must fade away my dear for all shall fade away.

By Haylee

Not going to use it all but there it is. You guys are the first to read it so take it as you will.
I also bought a new guitar he’s a beauty. Its’ almost exactly like my 1st one but it’s the newer version. His names Trayson and he rocks!!!!

Well I think that’s all my rambling for today.
God Speed ;-)

Survival? Hey take that world I made it! (Two points for me)

So I made it through the first week! Woot! Oh yeah! Give it up!

Now only an eternity left and I’m free :-( hum maybe I shouldn’t get too ecstatic just yet. I have more term papers than I have ever had in my life which in some classes means that I don’t have any finals and some it just mean I have something else due at the same time. Plus it seems that about 10% of the faculty is going to be cut here at USU and so I may not be able to get my degree like I was hoping. Hmm some days it seems that the fates really hate me and thus they suck… but on the up side it may not be as bad as it seems. There is a chance that they will keep the good ones and get rid of those who are more like the Devil himself, but I digress. All in all it is not a good time to be a student here at USU, but ‘Shrug’ what can you do? Press on that’s the key, plus well if I can’t finish I suppose it wasn’t meant to be (sigh).

On a different note I am broke. Yep I have whopping $38 dollars to my name. That’s what happens when you have to get your car worked on and such not but oh well it’s just paper right. (Paper that is really nice to have and is a strange color of green. Hmmm… I wonder why they chose green?) The plus sides to my life right now is my groovy apartment is now clean. Happy days! I just finished a really good book (for fun even!). It was called the Sirens Song and it’s the second book to the Coronus Chronicles; a very sarcastic series. I love it. Now I have to scavenge for another good book, but that shouldn’t be too hard. If anyone has any recommendations let me know. I’m always up for a good read. Nothing too dry please I have to read too many of those as it is thank you very much. Anthropology books tend to be torture rather than fun. “Sigh” I suppose that’s what you get with a degree that doesn’t include writing classes. Alas good literature I knew you well!

On the plus side I’m getting closer to having the exhibit that I’ve been working on done and with any luck we’ll be able to open in February. That will be a load off and it will be very, very cool. I know a lot of people are a little apprehensive to look at it and it make me smile. For those of you who don’t know it’s on body modifications and I’ve had a lot of people who quote “feel guilty” looking at it. It makes me laugh. There’s a book in the Anthropology Museum that we’ve been using and one of the girls working there looked at it and she said she felt really guilty looking at it. She read the chapter on scalping and she said it was kind of disturbing. I must say that I haven’t had to read about scalping people so I think it might be, but I think she picked a bad chapter to start with :-)

Any way, I must contemplate in the purpose of the universe so… God Speed.

1st Try

Ok here it goes. My fist ever blog! Hmmm. Well as I have been asked to give this a try here it goes! Ready or not.

Well I’m here in wonderful Logan wishing I was home. It really doesn’t have much to do with Logan itself really it’s more the living 260 some odd miles from my husband. Plus I really don’t have too many friends here but (shrug)… My areas of study are Anthropology, Linguistics, German and Museum Studies. It all sounds a lot more impressive than it really is. I’m standing on the precipice of a new semester and I’m not too sure about what to think. Last semester… well it sucked, but I have hopes that this one will be better and if not I only have 4 more to go :-/...hmm maybe I shouldn’t be so cheery.

One thing that I do have to say is that I do like my apartment save for the fact that I have a door that is sealed shut and leads into my neighbors’ apartment and well I wish I did not have to hear some of their activities (if you get my drift) luckily they invented noise canceling headphone… Now if I could just afford a set I would be sailin’.

All in all I like my apartment. It’s only four something a month and that includes utilities and Du du du du! :-0 Shag carpet! Yes that’s right we are talkin’ vintage shag burnt orange and everything. Ohhh yeah! Groovy. I have one window that gives an outstanding view of the parking lot (no hot cars though). As a bonus I have a demonic stove that goes from icy cold to atomic in ten seconds flat. I also have my very own bathroom (which is key) and is a good thing cuz well I live alone. Plus I have nothing to steal so the whole alone thing isn’t too bad. The lack of pricey stuff I think has to do with the whole married only two years and I’m still going to college. So yeah ‘Welcome to Brokevill! Population… Me.’

The whole groovy apartment thing lead to a new book idea that I am having fun with. I have been working on another one for 8 years. Yeah that’s right 8 and I’m still not done and I have a mega writer’s block… again, but some day I shall publish! (I think).

Any who I start a brand spankin’ new semester at wonderful USU tomorrow and.... :-( and well…. We’ll see how it goes.